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Friday, October 5, 2012

Day 73: A Composite Of Marys


Mary Magdalene by Giovanni Bellini circa 1490

Luke 7:36-38

New Living Translation (NLT)

Jesus Anointed by a Sinful Woman

36 One of the Pharisees asked Jesus to have dinner with him, so Jesus went to his home and sat down to eat.37 When a certain immoral woman from that city heard he was eating there, she brought a beautiful alabaster jar filled with expensive perfume. 38 Then she knelt behind him at his feet, weeping. Her tears fell on his feet, and she wiped them off with her hair. Then she kept kissing his feet and putting perfume on them.

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If I were to guess, I'd venture that no woman in the Bible is surrounded by more mystery and intrigue than Mary Magdalene. Mary was such a common name that she was often confused with other women; Mary the mother of Jesus, Mary the sister of Martha, Mary some mythological "wife" of the Messiah. (Jesus was never married, and I've never cared enough to research the origin of that cultish belief.) Last names weren't given in Scripture, and women, in particular, were rarely identified by family.

Our only real clue to Mary's identity is "Magdalene". Since we know Magdalene is not a surname, we must assume it refers to where she came from. Magdala was a fishing community about 120 miles north of Jerusalem on the shore of Galilee. At least one Jewish text, Lamentations Raba, declares that the town was destroyed by God because of rampant sexual sin. This was during a time under Roman Imperial rule, and families were often under such heavy tax burdens that they were forced to sell their children into slavery. Brothels were abundant throughout the Mediterranean region during this period in history, as well, so when you take all those factors and roll them into one big ball, it is easy to see how the modern day picture of Mary Magdalene as a prostitute began to take shape.

The truth is, Mary Magdalene is mentioned in all four Gospels, but is never once referred to as a hooker, nor are any specific sins ever associated with her. And she is most certainly not named as the woman of ill repute who washed the feet of Christ with tears and anointed Him with precious essential oil at the home of Simon the Pharisee.

(When Jesus realized Simon's disgust at the woman, He told Simon that a person who is forgiven much, loves much. In the parable, he implied the value of the prostitute at his feet was ten times greater that of the hypocrite serving him dinner.)

Aside from where she was from, we know only that Jesus had cast 7 demons from her at one time, that she was a follower of Jesus through His ministry, and was one of the women who discovered His empty tomb.

Having said all that, I am going to share (yet another) lyric I once wrote. The poem should not be taken as anything other than a fictional work, a composite of women who may or may not have been named Mary. But like the legend of Mary Magdalene, it is a tale of great sin, deep sorrow, sincere repentance, and absolute redemption. It is a story of a woman who is valued little by society, but who is valued greatly by her Redeemer. This rendition follows a woman from infancy to adulthood, showing the pattern of events that shaped her life.

So, without further ado...

Magdala Inn


Father, oh father,
Why have you forsaken me?
Where is my shelter from this storm?


He was only a shadow
of the man he'd once been,
a fisherman of high esteem.
He stood there in front
of the Magdala Inn,
reflecting on his broken dream.
His wife and his daughter
had brought joy to his hearth,
and prestige among his friends...
but his lover, his lady,
she'd died giving birth
to a beautiful set of twins...
and he cried...

Father, oh Father,

Why have you forsaken me?

Where is my shelter from this storm?


It is written
that pride goes before the fall,
and a proud man he was, no doubt...
refusing charity,
though he'd lost it all,
the man gave them up and walked out
as the children cried...
father, oh father,

why have you forsaken me?

where is my shelter from this storm?

Mary worked at the Magdala Inn,
where she'd been since she was a child.
She'd grown into a ravenous beauty
since the day she'd first been defiled.
She was held in reserve
for the wealthiest of men
who traveled through the town of Magdala...
the lowly prostitute,
princess of the Inn,
dressed in the finest regalia.

She had scented oils,
and silks and linen,
the best that money could buy...
but nobody knew what raged within,
and nobody heard her cry...

father, oh father,

why have you forsaken me?

where is my shelter from this storm?

Then came a man,
a prophet, some said,
called Jesus the Nazarene...
and despite the objections
from the apostles He led,
He touched her,
and washed her past clean.

She followed Him faithfully
for years to come,
having finally found peace inside.
Then she stood at the foot
of the cross where He hung,
and she heard Him as He cried...

Father, oh Father,

Why have you forsaken me?

Where is my shelter from this storm?




Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Day 70: Good Twin, Bad Twin


Matthew 21:28-31 

New Living Translation (NLT)

Image by Flyinfrogg @ Deviant Art

Parable of the Two Sons

28 “But what do you think about this? A man with two sons told the older boy, ‘Son, go out and work in the vineyard today.’ 29 The son answered, ‘No, I won’t go,’ but later he changed his mind and went anyway. 30 Then the father told the other son, ‘You go,’ and he said, ‘Yes, sir, I will.’ But he didn’t go.
31 (a) “Which of the two obeyed his father?”

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So who do you think was the more obedient son? If you guessed  the first, you aren't alone. Jesus asked this question when He went into the temple to teach, and even the priests and elders answered correctly. Sadly, though, I don't think they got the point.

A lot of people today don't get the point either. There are those who wear their Christianity like a badge, as though they were the thought police of the world. They stand on street corners holding signs that say "You'll Burn In Hell". They have no compassion for the hurting in their midst, but have plenty of condemnation dripping from their lips. They have a ready defense for their own actions, but spare nobody their self-righteous diatribe. 

But I'm not really even talking about them. That kind of hypocrisy is so obvious that it doesn't need someone like me to point it out. When Jesus had given sufficient time for his audience to answer the question, He elaborated. He said John the Baptist had come and shown them the right way to live, and they had dismissed him as irrelevant. He was talking to the Sadducees and the Pharisees, those who held positions as priests and teachers, those who were supposed to be the religious leaders of the day. And he was telling them that if they didn't repent of their sins, they'd be standing outside the Gate watching the the prostitutes and tax collectors enter into the Kingdom of Heaven. 

The point He was making was that some of us think our farts smell like roses because we claim to have Jesus. Some of us go around thinking we're safe from the fires of hell because we're saved and sanctified. And yet, we continue living a life that makes God's stomach turn. We don't repent; We think God has given us a wink and a nod, because we repeated the words of a sinner's prayer that some preacher recited for us 20 years ago, or last week.

Let me tell ya something. When we accept Christ as our Savior, it had better be coming from our heart! It had better be because we recognize how nasty and filthy and undeserving we are! I don't mean to offend those who use the 'Sinner's Prayer' as a tool in witnessing, but I honestly believe that if a person feels the need to get right with God, he should come up with his own words, no matter how few they are! It doesn't have to be an eloquent speech. 

The trouble is, the whole "repeat after me" version of salvation doesn't make the experience personal enough. When my daughters were young and would do something to make the other cry, I'd make the offender tell her sister "I'm sorry". Did she mean it? Probably not. Even if she really was sorry and sincerely meant the words she uttered, it wasn't believable, because she'd been told what to say. Sure, God can tell if a person is sincerely repentant, but I wonder; Does the person repenting believe the words he repeated?

There are a lot of people in the world who think they're exempt from the coming judgement. They accepted Christ with their mouths, but not in their hearts. They give lip service to God, but don't reflect Him in their lives. They unashamedly live immoral and decadent lives, doing whatever makes them feel good. They shack up with a lover, or indulge in gay relationships, they beat their children or spit on homeless people. They steal from their employer or they tell lies about their neighbor. 

But they show up on church every Sunday morning and call it all good.

Meanwhile, that hooker down at 5th and Main? She's hating herself. She is filled with self-loathing. She keeps selling herself because nobody has loved her enough to show her a better way. She spends what she makes on booze or drugs to make her numb, so she can keep on existing the only way she knows how. She feels worthless because she knows her life is worthless without Christ. 

She's the one who, when she reaches rock bottom and cries out to Jesus, it's a gut-wrenching, soul searching, heart-aching guttural cry that may not even formulate into words. But you can bet He understands every painful inflection in her voice. And when she gives herself to Him, she knows it must be completely. She doesn't want to look back on the life of sin she's been living. It didn't bring her any joy, and she won't miss it when its gone. She's going to have a long road ahead of her, and she might stumble along the way, but she's going to keep falling forward into the arms of grace.

So who are you? Are you the hooker, ready to give up everything in your comfort zone to serve God? Or are you the Pharisee sitting in your easy chair, surrounded by all the pleasures you think God doesn't really expect you to give up?

You call Him "lord". But is He really LORD over your life?






Thursday, September 6, 2012

Day 41: What God Wants


Bertram Mackennal [Public domain]

Psalm 51:16-17

New Living Translation (NLT)
16 You do not desire a sacrifice, or I would offer one.
    You do not want a burnt offering.
17 The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit.
    You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God.


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This is really a continuation of yesterday. Whereas yesterday I just assumed that perhaps David was inspired to write that psalm after he had committed adultery with Bathsheba, this Psalm really is. Preceding the words of the Psalm are directions for the choir director, and describes this as being specifically about that sinful period in his life.

I think the easiest trap for us to fall into is thinking that God is only some passive, benevolent spirit in the sky that is quick to forgive when we pay a little lip-service to Him. While He is loving, patient, and forgiving, He's also a just God, and He makes His justice known, even to His own children. The consequences of our actions can bring disastrous results, and God isn't one to let us off the hook easily. He wants us to learn from our experiences, and the lessons He teaches aren't easy ones.

How often do we plea with God for this or that, making our requests known, and then like an afterthought, we remember to say "oh yeah, while I'm at it, will you forgive me of all my sins?" I hope I'm not the only one who has been guilty of that. Or maybe we rush through it at the beginning of our prayer; "Oh Lord, please forgive me for having done such-and-such today. Now will you help me out with this?"

David understood what God really wanted from us. In a time when animal sacrifices were required for just about everything, including to cover sins (because the Lamb of God had not yet come to bear that burden), David knew that what God wanted even more than an adherence to the laws of sacrifice was sincerity.

God doesn't want us to flippantly ask forgiveness as though it were something to mark off our to-do list. He wants us to be broken, naked, and deeply sorrowful before Him. Ok, now I don't mean "naked" as in "nude", despite the imagery, I mean He wants us to be totally transparent, not trying to hide anything from his sight or to cover any of our actions with excuses.

We should learn from David's example. He was on his knees before God, begging for His mercy and compassion. He pleaded with God not only to erase the stain of his sin, but to cleanse him of his guilt and purify him from it. He owns up to what he's done, and is so sorry for his actions that he says it haunts him day and night! He can't get it out of his head how he took another man's wife, and then plotted to ensure that the wronged man would be killed in battle. He knew that Uriah's blood was on his hands, and He specifically asks God to forgive him for that. He accepts that God's judgment against him is just, and that he has deserved the price he has paid. Do you remember what that price was? His sin cost him the life of his child. And the consequences of his actions didn't just affect him. Imagine what Bathsheba must have been going through! Sure, she had moved into the palace after losing her husband, but now she had lost her child! She must have felt a lot of resentment towards her new husband, the king. Don't ya think?

As David prayed, he got it. He knew that burning a sacrifice, although required by law, really wasn't good enough. He understood that what would please God far more than going through the motions was for him to offer himself, his own broken spirit and his own broken heart, as his sacrifice. And that is exactly what he offered, knowing that God would accept such an offering and restore David to the joy of his salvation. He wasn't asking that God would simply let him be happy again, He was asking that God would restore his happiness with the kind of joy that comes only from God, through obedience to God.

That is the manner in which we should pray. We screw up daily, so many times that we can't even keep track. Most of the times we don't even acknowledge the things that we do to offend God, because they're so habitual that we don't recognize them as being wrong. But they pile up around us, creating clutter and chaos in our spiritual lives (even if we don't claim to have one) until we completely break down emotionally. 

The only one who can, or will, pull us out of the quicksand is God. And until we are truly, deeply sorry for having strolled into the quagmire in the first place, God's going to let us keep sinking. Things will never get better until we come before God, broken in spirit, and offer ourselves to Him.

Isn't it time?